I stood there, drowning in the absence of grief.
“I want to remember,” I said. “I want to feel it again. The whole thing. The fight. The door slamming. The note.”
The Seduction of Silence
I ran down the corridor, past the other guests—zombies in bathrobes—and burst into the lobby. The concierge looked up. “How may we help you, sir?” File- Krilinresort---Jedi-tricks--Love-Me-Baby....
I arrived on a tide of burnt-orange dust, the twin suns already sinking behind the monolithic spa domes. The lobby smelled of ion-chilled champagne and recycled oxygen. Everyone wore the same serene, vacant smile—the look of people who had paid a fortune to have their memories carefully, beautifully extracted.
By the third night, I was hollow. The Jedi-tricks had worked too well. I could no longer picture her face. I could no longer hear her laugh. I sat on the edge of the bed, staring at my own hands, and felt nothing.
I was here to forget her.
And that was when the silence became unbearable.
I agreed. Why not? I had come to forget.
“The final stage,” they said, gesturing to a glowing new line on the brochure. “Love Me Baby—Post-Forgetting Edition. It means you have successfully un-loved someone. Would you like to book a complimentary float session?” I stood there, drowning in the absence of grief
I tried. I failed.
And for the first time in my life, I missed the pain more than I had ever missed her.